Tag Archives: depression

Changeable

I’m just sitting here, scrolling through my own shit on my blog, re-reading old stuff. ‘Cause, why not? Who else is gonna be interested in the drivel I spew? No one. That’s who. (If I seem a bit bitter, that’s … Continue reading

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I Know Better

I wonder what ever happened to that young, idealistic girl I used to be that would say shit like ‘you gotta talk out your feelings ‘cause they’ll just fester and drive you crazy’ and would laugh at songs like Simon … Continue reading

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Living for Others

Let me preface this post by saying I’m going to be brutally honest. Not that I hide the truth usually – I have gone quite a bit deeper in the last year or so than I used to in the … Continue reading

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Stressed

I hate feeling this way. And I hate that no one understands how I feel. Not even me. I have so much going on inside me but it’s locked away. I can’t let it out no matter how much I … Continue reading

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Black-Hearted Robot

I think my empathy is broken. I used to consider myself a pretty empathetic and compassionate person. On the surface, I still seem to be that way. When someone is crying, I automatically cry. When someone I care about it … Continue reading

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Nothing

Some days are bad. Some days are okay. Somedays are just nothing. These are the ones that are hardest to deal with. I’m so bored don’t want to do anything. I have no interest in TV, reading, seeing or speaking … Continue reading

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The Dead Man’s Float

I’ve been living with a somewhat mildish depression for several months now. It’s always been off and on for many, many years (if not my entire life). This time around, I’m not saying ‘struggling with’ because, I guess due to … Continue reading

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Lazy

This world is stupid and I don’t want to be a part of it anymore. Luckily for the people who are stupid enough to love me, my greatest weakness is what keeps me here. I’m too lazy to change my situation. … Continue reading

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Dilemma

I think I’m just about ready to give up. There’s not much left. I could get a job but it would just be another thing I hate doing and another thing to make me miserable. A way to pass the time with no actual … Continue reading

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Breaking

I’m always falling apart on the inside but no one knows. I’m constantly right on the edge, moments away from complete breakdown. I don’t hide it on purpose. I wish I could tell someone and they could fix it for … Continue reading

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