Fanfic Rec Wednesday – My Top 5

I’ve held off on doing fan fiction recommendations in the past. I felt a little like a fraud doing it. I’m a pretty slow reader and I haven’t been reading fic that long. In the time it takes me to finish one, my friends go through at least five. I take a lot of breaks to digest what I read, internalizing the characters feelings and thinking about their actions. I re-read certain passages over and over until I feel fully connected to the story. I also have a bad track record for reading completion. I had a long list of half-read stories I’m still “working on”.

All that said, I still have opinions about the things I have actually read. Strong ones. I have favourites and ones I hated, just like anyone else. Although I prefer to keep my negative opinions out of public media (my poor friends are frequently hassled at the oddest hours by texts messages about my fic rage though), I am more than happy to share the ones I enjoyed.

I decided to quickly run through my top five for your consideration. I’m not going to give you full-on reviews, because that’s already been done. These are older titles. Odds are, if you are a Twilight fan fiction reader yourself, you’ve already read them. If not, I think you should.

The Best I Ever Had by WhatsMyNomDePlume
It’s posted to read online here on fanfiction.net.

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Clipped Wings & Inked Armor by HunterHunting

This one is no longer available to read online as fan fiction. It was pulled and recently published in two volumes as Clipped Wings (released yesterday! March 4, 2015) and InkedArmor (releasing May 13, 2013) by Helena Hunting.

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Departures by TheFicChick
This one was pulled from fanfiction.net in one of the site’s arbitrary purges but can be found on the author’s blog at theficchick.wordpress.com.

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Grasping Darkness by KiyaRaven

This one is also on fanfiction.net here.

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Simply Edward by CaraNo

The author pulled it from fanfiction.net but it is still available to read on her blog. caranofiction.wordpress.com

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If you’re ever interested as to why these five made it to the top of my list, just ask. I’m opting not to go into detail here right now because, as I’m sure you’ve noticed, I can be exceptionally long-winded. Read them for yourself to see how great they are, then let me know what you think.

(originally posted to Eat. Sleep. Breathe. Twilight.)

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Yum

Just woke up from a dream. I was Facetiming with Rob, doing some interview. I was asking him questions my sister was feeding me but she was mumbling so I wasn’t saying them right. I gave up and decided to use my own. I asked him what was his favourite way to use the word fuck. He said something I couldn’t hear cause people in the room with me were being loud. I said “What? I didn’t hear you.” But then he did that tongue thing I like from my favourite gif. I told him, “Rob. Stop that!” in mock shock. Then I woke up trembling and actually said out loud ‘holy fucking shit’. 

It. Was. Awesome.

And I am a loser.

Guess putting Dior on your pillow DOES make for very good dreams.

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My Pic for Christina Perri’s Head vs. Heart Tour

Not gonna lie, I totally fangirled when CP posted my picture on her Instagram and Twitter accounts. #headorheart

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There was some backlash over this too, which was hilarious. Because my Twitter was @kmuffin88 (changed later on) and my Instagram was @kmah88 and Christina posted it on Instagram citing my Twitter name, someone commented saying that the kmuffin handle wasn’t in use on Instagram and someone should claim it. So some little girl did! I don’t know what she thought she’d gain from impersonating me. Anyway… my friends were outraged on my behalf and called the girl out and I may have defended my name and “artistic licence” a bit. All in fun.

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And later…

On April 14th, my friends Abbygail, Elana and I went to see Christina in concert in Toronto. I printed out my Edward creation and showed it to her during the meet and greet. She remembered it and laughed, saying she loved it, and autographed it for me. (It’s now framed in my Twilight room.)

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the Twilight tattoo

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Random Thoughts 2

People seem to think that having a “one and only” is romantic. I think it’s stupid. To only experience one relationship ever is extremely limiting. There are parts of yourself you will never come to know and explore. It’s sad really. You can’t choose the best of yourself when you’ve only ever seen one way.

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Rest

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I have this mental image of gingerly walking around on a sharp, rocky shoreline, looking around desperately for somewhere comfortable to sit down and rest my exhausted self.

There is nowhere.

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I Hate Being a Girl

I think I’m having my first true bout of PMS. I am just a container full of emotion right now. I hate it. I don’t know how to deal with it all. EVERYTHING is pissing me off. Or hurting my feelings. I can’t process new incoming emotions fast enough. I feel like I’m being pummelled from every direction.

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Random Thoughts

Epiphany. What if my “luck” is actually caused by me? With this denial of what I possibly could have… elsewhere. I only allow myself the minimum passion. Existence. Why then, should anything else work out completely in my favour?

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Journal Challenge

I used to write in journals a lot when I was younger. There was even a period in high school when I wrote in one every day for 6 months. If you know me, you’re probably aware that I don’t stick to anything for long. Usually I can stay focused for about 2 weeks. So 6 months was unheard of behaviour.

I can’t say exactly why I stopped writing, but I know it’s linked to how I’ve been feeling the past few years. I feel like there is a stopper in my throat sometimes that keeps me from being able to speak my mind. It’s not that I don’t want to, but I am at a loss for words. I’m hoping that by writing more often, I will be more in tune with my emotions.

By nature, I’m very reflective about everything I do. I ponder. A lot. It only makes sense to write these things down. When I did write in my journal in the past, I found it to be a very cathartic practice. In recent years, I have developed an unhealthy habit of holding everything inside, partly due to that psychological block I mentioned, and partly because I just don’t want to bother anyone. Too often, my thoughts are dark and toxic. They stew and fester and cycle back on themselves which can leave me in an unpleasant haze of nastiness for days at a time. This is when I sleep the most. It’s sometimes the only reprieve I can get from my brain. …As long as they don’t follow me into unconsciousness and plague me with nightmares, of course.

Obviously, this is not the healthiest method of coping. So~ back to my point. I use my journal to dump all these thoughts. Purge them from my brain in the hopes of lessening their toxicity. Once they are out, it can help to stop that cycle.

The original plan was to write every day. But I don’t want to set myself up for failure, so I’m just going to say I will write more. Since I wrote only one entry in the last year and a half, it shouldn’t be hard to beat!

Now, I want to pose this challenge to you. If I find it helpful, I’m sure that anyone would. But there are numerous reasons to write. Some people do it as a creative outlet, some simply to record memories, others may do it just to have a habit to stick with. Or maybe you just want to practice your penmanship? Whatever. Start writing. See what it can do for you.

I’m going to do a separate post with ideas and pictures and stuff.

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A Year in Review

My mom always sends out these “newsletter” things with her holiday cards. Apparently a lot of people do it. While I think it’s weird, I can see the merit in the idea. It basically lets everyone you care about (and hopefully care about you) that you may not keep in regular contact with what you have been up to lately. It works for my family because we are spread out all over the country ~ the main hub of it all around the Winnipeg area but also aunts, uncles, and cousins in Vancouver and Edmonton, a few more stragglers in other parts of Ontario, Manitoba, Alberta, Saskatchewan, and even the States. (Not to mention, friends… ALL over the place, of course.) People come in and out of your life for various lengths of time but these letters are a good way to answer the question “I wonder what’s new with so-and-so”.

That said, I think it’s incredibly dorky. But I’ll do it anyway. Because, overall, it’s been a good year.

2013 started off with me in my last semester of ECE (early childhood education) at Sheridan College. In my very first semester, I had heard of an opportunity to go to Hong Kong to do my third work placement (more in-depth story here, if you’re interested) so I basically busted my ass to maintain my 4.0 GPA. I went through a fairly intensive interview process to be selected as one of the 8 diploma program students to go at the end of 2012. (I should have done a post for last year too. It was awesome! 😉 Anyway…)
I finished up classes in early April, then spent 2 weeks preparing for the month-long trip to China.

Hong Kong was exciting, a ton of fun, scary at times, very difficult at others, and perhaps even life-alternating. One day, I plan to actually update the Hong Kong blog I made and then you can read all about it, if you are so inclined.

A few days after returning, we had our graduation ceremony. In general, I found college to be pretty easy, academically. But some aspects were really hard ~ going to classes everyday, doing my homework, staying on top of things, handing assignments in on time. I tend to give up on things and never stick to anything for very long. Graduation for me signified that I had actually done it. I had completed something. Probably for the first time in my life. (Little known fact, I TECHNICALLY didn’t even really “finish” high school.) And not only had I finished the program, I did it with high honours. I was sort of proud of myself.

A few other great memories were made during the first half if the year. I saw Weezer in concert (again) in Detroit and met 3 of the 4 members (and their fanboy/historian/buddy Karl) after the show, got their autographs on a setlist, and chatted with them a bit. That was awesome! I got to see both Green Day and Muse in concert for the first (hopefully not only) time. AND, huge highlight, hubby accompanied me to see both Marcus Foster and Bobby Long play (different times) in Toronto. At that point, I had only been a fan of both of them for less than a year. I had never seen either of them live before but listened to their music pretty much all day every day. After that, I only needed to add seeing Sam Bradley in person to that list…

With summer, came my “relaxing” time (which has continued until the present, even though it was only supposed to be a few weeks).

A few noteworthy things happened ~ there was a fun date-day with hubby at the zoo, my friend Jodi, who I hadn’t seen since fancamp, came to visit, and I somewhat stalked the set of a movie my favourite actor was filming in Toronto. (Can’t wait to own it on DVD and squeal and be able to say I was standing right outside when that scene comes on.)

One typically boring day at the very end of July, my friend Brina and I were discussing the upcoming San Diego and LA shows Bobby Long was about the do, still on his extensive tour I had caught the beginning of. We were saying how great it would be to be able to see him together one day. She pointed out that I wasn’t doing anything and I did still have a bit of money left… Then she just happened to hint that it had been floating around the internet that Sam Bradley was in town and would probably be at the LA show too… There was a lull in the conversation and she finally said “you’re looking up flight info right now, aren’t you?” Indeed I was. I made a very short visit to San Deigo (through Buffalo and Vegas… Craziness ensued. Both ways. Including an unexpected night over in Vegas on the way home in which I had to wash my clothes with shampoo in a hotel room sink and dry them over a lamp.) I got to stay with Brina, who I also hadn’t seen since fancamp, for a few days and catch both Bobby’s shows …and, yes, I did meet Sam Bradley. (‘Another guy’ was in attendance, but I didn’t meet him. I didn’t even want to. Not that night, anyway.)
I can’t quite go into detail about meeting Sam, but it was SO MUCH MORE than I ever expected. We talked for a few minutes, even mentioned my tattoo. But the best part was being with Brina the whole time, because without her imparting her musical knowledge to me, I wouldn’t even know who Sam was. And witnessing that in person… Amazing! (I won’t embarrass Brina further than that.)

September was busy! Hubby and I went to San Francisco/Oakland, with a 2-day stop in Monterrey, for his cousin, Noelle’s wedding, which was lovely. It was so great to be able to spend that time with his family. I wish we had been able to go back again in October for Noelle’s sister, Vanessa’s wedding too!

From SF, I flew directly (sans hub) to Portland, Oregon, to meet up with my Twigirls for our Forks adventure. I had just seen Brina the month before, and Jodi in June, but Miranda and Deena, not since fancamp, and Kristin, not ever! It was long overdue. And adventure, it definitely was. Forks was everything I wanted it to be ~ time with my friends, twifangirling, reuniting with other people I hadn’t seen since LA, like Jenn M and Tracy (hi!), finally getting an actual picture with Erik (even though it sucks just as bad as the only one from LA, just that he and Jack showed up was great), and perhaps the best part ~ redeeming myself by being able to hold my alcohol this time… unlike some. 🙂

No, the best part was meeting Stephenie Meyer. To meet the creator of my obsession IN the holy land… Indescribable. And I almost missed it. But thanks to my PE (Pocket Edward, for those who don’t know), she actually called me back over to take a picture with her.

I also got to meet some more great friends who I wouldn’t want to be without in my life now. Tami, Jenn B, Angie ~ ILY! < 3

I was very sad to have to go home again and I wish every day that I lived closer to all these wonderful people.

I realize, this has turned very bloggy, instead of newslettery. I tend to start being cryptic and speaking only directly to certain people when talking about Twilight-related stuff. I figure most people aren’t interested.

If you stopped reading out of boredom, you can come back now. 😛

The rest of the year has been quiet. I just finished level 1 of a Wilton cake decorating class with my friend, Geena, and we are about to start level 2. That’s been really fun and something somewhat creative to keep me from going insane.

I’m unemployed, broke, and bored ~ but hopefully that will all change very soon. I have many more fun “adventures” planned for 2014!

I should also mention, 2013 held the births of two new nephews for me! My sister’s son, Saul, in February, and my brother’s son, Ben, in November. Congratulations!

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This is a collage I made for day 29 of the #fmsphotoaday December challenge ~ “best bit of 2013”. It hits pretty much everything I mentioned, so I thought I’d add it.

P.S. I forgot to mention that I also got 2 new tattoos this year. Yay. (Both have their own blog posts ~ here and here.)

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Adventures in Beta-ing

In a previous post, I very briefly wrote about the job of a beta. Essentially, this is the writer’s “second” – as in the second pair of eyes to look over the chapter before it’s posted for grammatical errors, continuity issues, and to ensure the story maintains its flow.

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Since I am not so great with the actual fanfic writing myself but really enjoy the creative process of being involved in the whole Twi-fic world, I recently started beta-ing. Just a few chapters here and there and some stuff that hasn’t been posted yet. I love it! It’s really fun for me – like a complex math puzzle, but without the numbers so that it actually makes sense to me. The process fascinates me and I want to get further into it and gain more experience and understanding.

I personally think all authors could benefit from having such a person around to enhance their stories. Although I know nothing of the publishing world, I assume a beta is like the equivalent of a book editor but for the “amateur” level of fanfiction writing (which we all know crosses over more and more often now). Betas are available – why not use them? I’ve read a lot of stories where easily-fixed mistakes make me cringe. If plot, characterization, etc. are your strong points and you are maybe not as strong in the technicalities of writing, why not have another person help you out? Even if you are a “grammar nazi”, we all make mistakes from time to time and sometimes it takes another person to catch them.

The relationship between author and beta needs to be clearly defined. Different authors may want different things so the role of the beta is not always the same. In general, a beta finds and points out errors for the author to fix during rewrites. But a beta can be much more than that. Some authors have a beta and a pre-reader (or several of each). At first I didn’t understand this distinction and had to ask on twitter what the difference was. (Usually, at the top of a chapter, the author gives the prerequisite disclaimer of “no copyright infringement intended” and thanks their betas and pre-readers. I kept seeing that over and over and was confused.) It was explained to me that a beta handles the technical aspects whereas the pre-reader is there to help with continuity, plot ideas, and characterization. In some cases, a beta does both.

I asked friends of mine, Brina, a pre-reader, and Deena, an author, what they thought about the writer-beta relationship. They both agreed that the expectations need to be established in the beginning – what the author is looking for and what the beta is able to do.

Brina said, “When picking a beta you have to decide, do you want someone to fix grammar and typos or do you want someone who will do that plus make your story better, to give you ideas, to inspire to make you a better writer. They are there to catch the stuff you can’t and sometimes they are there to stop you from losing your way.”

At this point, I am not confident enough in my own abilities and lack the experience to be able to give criticism on story development. I made sure that they authors I read for knew this. I am going in with the intention of fixing punctuation, typos, and basic grammar rules alone. If something does occur to me, such as an error in continuity, I will point it out but I don’t specifically look for them.

It was agreed that honestly is the most important factor in the author-beta relationship. Deena said, “[You don’t want] someone who praises everything you do without giving any kind of feedback at all. You need the truth, not someone who says everything is great because they think that’s what you want to hear.”

Another point my friends made was trust. The author needs to be able to trust her beta. Not only that she will be honest but that she will maintain confidentiality. As a beta, you are reading sometimes highly sought after stories before anyone else gets a chance to. Many times, they are submissions for contest for which you must be a vault and not even let anyone else know you are involved. Another aspect to that confidentiality is not bashing your author. It seems like common sense, but I have heard of this happening. A while back things were said on twitter by someone who was acting as the beta for a fairly popular story and she claimed the author would be nothing without her and took credit for the story’s brilliance. Boo to her! She sucks. (And is no longer attached to that story.)

I also think a beta needs to be aware of the difference between when something isn’t working and when something is simply a stylistic choice you may not agree with. It’s the author’s creative endeavour, not yours. You aren’t there to have the story written the way you would write it. You are there to help the author write the best story she can write. There’s no harm in making your opinions known and offering suggestions, just like anyone else who will be reading the story will inevitably do in reviews anyway, but it’s the author’s story and her choice to do what she wants with it.

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