I’ve stripped away from myself everything that ever mattered,
and I’m left floating, alone, lost in a perpetual dark fog.
I’ve forgotten who I was,
forgotten how to love,
how to care,
how to live.
Meaningless and empty. 

I’m trying to crawl out of the mud slick pit,
scraping against slippery walls,
clawing my way out and back up to the light.

I can see it but how can I get there?
Nothing to dig into to,
nothing to hold onto,
nothing to pull myself up on.
I know that others exist that can help me but they don’t know I’m here.
How can I call for help
if my mouth has been sewn shut
and their ears are too blocked to hear me?